Whilst we all know I am a little slow on blog posting, a 3 month hiatus seems a bit much! Well it’s for a great reason: I’m so happy to share that we are expecting a little girl in January!
The road to pregnancy was short for us and we are so grateful. We were the lucky ones and I say a thankful prayer every day. I know how blessed I am to be in my early thirties and pregnant so quickly! The road to pregnancy might not have been paved with hardship but the baby highway I’m on has been BUMPY! (Pardon the pun! Or bun…. I mean, I could go on…)
I knew I was pregnant way before the test came back positive. My two best friends thought I was absolutely insane; they kept saying it’s impossible because they didn’t want me to get my hopes up. I just knew and I kept it mum after that. For a big mouth like me, it was torture but this was different. There was a different feeling, a heightened awareness and new sensations in my body that I hadn’t ever felt before. It made me totally call bullshit those TV shows like I Didn’t Know I Was Pregnant! But then again, everyone’s pregnancy is different. I learned that very quickly!
When my mom was pregnant with me, she had morning sickness until the first day of her second trimester. She woke up renewed, energetic, and feeling great. They say like mother, like daughter on many things but for me, it didn’t happen that way.
Since that magical time when I just knew I was pregnant, I have felt nauseated. Nausea slowly morphed into gagging, choking strangulation. I am almost 16 weeks along, past the point of the second trimester and still find myself gagging and choking on air or stomach bile multiple times a day. I already had acid reflux and now it rages day and night to push me to my breaking point of pain in my chest and throat. Growing and stretching has begun and it’s so amazing to see my belly start to curve. Even in this stifling heat, I’ve had no swelling and no other serious issues except weakness. My child is healthy and thriving. I long to be feeling the same soon.
I am so grateful to be pregnant. I am so happy to finally be having this baby. This blog is not a complaint; it’s about the challenges some people face on the way to mommyhood. Whether it’s fertility, morning sickness, or anything else, the road is not always paved with roses. I accept the challenges in front of me. I cringe and take a deep breath at every challenge behind me, knowing that I’m doing something extraordinary, growing a miracle under my heart. I know I’m lucky. I look forward to the day I won’t feel weak and sick anymore and can really embrace and prepare for the little bundle of pink I have coming into my life come January.
That being said it’s a joy to see the bobbing image on the screen. It’s a blessing to know she is safe, healthy, and happy in my belly for the next 5.5 months. It’s also my prerogative to say the whoever called it morning sickness was smoking a crack pipe. My friend Elliot coined a new phrase so I hereby forevermore dub morning sickness with a new name: BABYBARF.
That’s it for now- stand by for more blogs on my bumpy journey with the bump!