“Somebody loses and somebody wins
And one day it’s kicks, then it’s kicks in the shins
But the planet spins, and the world goes ’round-
But the world goes ’round
But the world goes ’round
Sometimes your dreams get broken in pieces
But that doesn’t matter at all
Take it from me, there’s still gonna be
A summer, a winter, a spring and a fall.”
Kander and Ebb
Have you read my post My Life in Art, right? Well, if not, then you should! It details the excitement and exhilaration I felt when I was going to record my album. I couldn’t wait! I felt so ready and so on top of the world last July like I was floating. It was such an amazing experience and then two months later when I went to Europe I really was on top of the world.
Then you should read Trying Out the Roller Coaster. It explains how so many things fell apart after being on top of the world. My album was lost in a technological nightmare through no fault of anyone. It was heartbreaking and not salvageable. At that time, I really wanted to give up on so much.
Lots of things have been happening in my life lately that would make me want to throw in the towel, challenges that I never thought I would have to deal with, challenges you never think will happen to you. I want to believe everything happens for a reason. I want to believe God doesn’t give you more than you can handle. I want to believe I’m a good person so good things will come my way, what goes around comes around. I SO want to believe all of these things.
Today I had a thought, though. The world turns. The planet spins. And just like that, today is over. It’s done. Things can flip on the dime overnight. Like the quote above says, “But the world goes round.” Every day I’m here on this earth though I have a chance to do something. I chatted with a guest at my hotel the other day whose husband is on dialysis, waiting for a new kidney. Sometimes his days are full of awesome big chances and adventures and others he chooses to rest and enjoy a tranquil afternoon. And the world goes round and round and round.
I’m going to be okay with the chances I choose to take. If that burger looks good or the couch looks more appealing than the gym or if I want to screen my calls, it’s okay because other days are going to bursting with chances for adventures, auditions, babies, vacations, and the what not.
Tomorrow is a second chance for something I started a year or two ago. I’m once again flying down south to work with my two amazingly talented friends to record my album. I’m still a little under the weather with a scratchy throat. I didn’t put in the copious amounts of rehearsal time that I did last time. I feel like I’m throwing myself together to get there. I worry that it’ll all disappear again because that’s my luck. I get all up in my head thinking I’m not good enough to get it done the way I want to.
That’s today. AND THE WORLD GOES ROUND. Scarlett O’Hara said that tomorrow is another day.
Tomorrow is a day for crushing it. Tomorrow is another turn at this goal I’ve had for years. Tomorrow I’m going to sound amazing and feel even better. Tomorrow is the start of my chance to get it right. So here I go…. again…. reaching for my dreams. Life would be awful boring if you didn’t stretch every once in awhile. The summer led to a fall. The winter is leading me right to spring. Stay tuned. Everything will soon be coming up roses. 🙂